40 Days of Repentance | Day 10: Knowledge


I guess you could call this a part 2 of sorts…

In my last post, I talked about the importance of being open in our quest for truth and being willing to consider things that sound completely illogical to the point of seeming “crazy” or being proven wrong about everything we think we know.

The unwillingness to do so (or what I would call pride) is a reflection of our need to be right, and it’s only one side of the coin. The other side is what I struggle with: an obsession for truth and knowledge so great, that it sometimes compromises my relationship with The Father.

Are we so consumed with knowing stuff—reading Scripture, browsing articles, watching YouTube videos, and trolling Facebook comment threads—that we forget the one who gave us this thirst for knowledge in the first place?

Moreover, are we seeking knowledge at the expense of Heavenly wisdom, which only comes through a relationship with Him?

I’ll be the first to admit it: I am. Or I was before this 40 Days of Repentance series began. My partial phone fast has definitely helped to tame that obsession quite a bit.

Still, it lingers … there are so many interesting ideas being presented about the times we’re living in, and it’s hard to resist the urge to hear them out. Not that hearing them out is a bad thing. As I mentioned in my last post, I do think it’s important to consider multiple conflicting and seemingly crazy perspectives on things, so that if a day of deception should come, we have less chance of falling prey to it.

But when our faith is compromised as a result of this diehard quest, then it’s time to rethink—or repent.

This is a pattern that seems especially prevalent among those who are new to Torah. We discover that much of what we were taught to believe in mainstream “churchianity” is false. We resent the teachers who presented that information. And we set ourselves on a mission to find out what’s real, once and for all.

We become obsessed with things like:

  • Making sure everyone knows the “pagan” origins of the holidays we used to celebrate.
  • Pronouncing and/or spelling the name of our God and his Son correctly. (“Is it Yahweh or Yahuah? Yeshua, Yahshua or Yehoshua?” Does it really matter if we’re not in relationship with Him and seeking Him daily?)
  • Arguing over the shape of the earth. (For the record, I do believe the ancient Hebrew conception of the earth is important to consider and even study, and the whole “we live on a spinning ball” idea never made much sense to me personally—but, this is not an obsession of mine, nor should it ever be for anyone. I see way too much division in the body over this topic and it makes me sad. Another post for another day, perhaps…)
  • Following the “right” calendar (does anyone even know what that is?)
  • Disproving the Trinity (please don’t get me started on all that mess)
  • Figuring out the significance of September 23rd and the Revelation 12 sign.

The list goes on…

Meanwhile, YHWH’s over here like:


On a serious note, are we seeking Him? Are we listening to His Spirit? Or are we seeking knowledge to feed our own self-righteous obsessions?

“But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit AND in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him.” John 4:23

I’ll end with the lyrics to a song I wrote a long time ago about pride. It was inspired by a conversation I once heard between an atheist philosopher and a Christian whom the atheist wrongly presumed to be a “fire and brimstone preacher”:

In a fight between knowledge and wisdom, the loser always wins
Stand up to my sword with your flowery words, and I’ll sever the head from the stem, oh
Don’t wait for darkness to swallow you whole
Light is the space between body and soul
If you would only step down from your throne,
You might see more than fire and brimstone
I don’t know if you know what you’re talking about, but you sure make it sound like you do
And my friend, I’m afraid if I told you the truth that it might just break you in two, oh
Don’t wait for darkness to swallow you whole
Light is the space between body and soul
If you would only step down from your throne,
You might see more than fire and brimstone
One day we’re all gonna be surprised
When we wake up to see the ones we despised
Sitting before our very eyes, but until then …
Don’t wait for darkness to swallow you whole
Light is the space between body and soul
If you would only step down from your throne,
You might see more than fire and brimstone

I purposely wrote this song in such a way that it’s hard to tell who I sided with in that conversation. Looking back, I believe that both parties were coming from a place of pride. A place we often find ourselves in when we abandon our relationship with The Father to seek after knowledge and the desires of our flesh.

It’s time to repent.

This is day 10 in my 40 Days of Repentance series. Click here to read day 9


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  1. Great points! I identified with a lot of what you wrote about trying to know as much as possible and expose the roots of things that most just take for granted. I do believe it’s important and especially for the reason you listed – not being deceived. I know that when I get TOO obsessed with these things, my relationship with God suffers and I am not doing anything that even edifies me spiritually. Thank you for the reminder.

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