God woke me up early several weeks ago and gave me the content of this post. I wrote it down in my journal and have felt a ‘nudge’ ever since to publish it here. It’s a nudge I’ve ignored for long enough.
Truth be told, I’m not exactly “feeling” what I’m about to write. I’m writing it down, because the nudge has become too much of an annoyance to bear. And because I’m sure there’s a good reason why He tells me to make this stuff public, despite my insistence that very few people will read it.
I was feeling it weeks ago when He gave it to me. Now, not so much. Instead, I’ve been feeling anxiety and overwhelm over everything that will need to happen before baby arrives in September. More about that in Part 2 …
But for now, here’s Part 1:
I awoke this morning and observed my family lying in our bed.
Daddy. Indie. Kale. Me. Baby Luke.
Luke, party of five. It has a nice ring to it. 🙂
As I began to ponder the events of the last few weeks and months, it became apparent that our Heavenly Father is good.
He delights in the details.
Example: when I asked him for $1,250 as confirmation that we were supposed to move forward on building a home in Indian Trail, I received an unexpected phone call the very next morning from my personal injury attorney regarding an accident case that had been pending since December of last year.
The amount awarded to me from the settlement was exactly $1,250.
We are soon to be Luke, party of five, and the way that He has provided and opened doors for this new chapter of our life has been nothing short of amazing. As I observed my husband and children sleeping, Abba beckoned me out of bed and into the living room.
I opened my Bible to Luke 5, because, how fitting, right? 😉
As I read through the first 11 verses, I couldn’t help but laugh.
And it came to pass, that, as the people pressed upon him to hear the word of God, he stood by the lake of Gennesaret, and saw two ships standing by the lake: but the fishermen were gone out of them, and were washing their nets. And he entered into one of the ships, which was Simon’s, and prayed him that he would thrust out a little from the land. And he sat down, and taught the people out of the ship. Now when he had left speaking, he said unto Simon, Launch out into the deep, and let down your nets for a draught. And Simon answering said unto him, Master, we have toiled all the night, and have taken nothing: nevertheless at thy word I will let down the net. And when they had this done, they inclosed a great multitude of fishes: and their net brake. And they beckoned unto their partners, which were in the other ship, that they should come and help them. And they came, and filled both the ships, so that they began to sink. When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Yahshua’s knees, saying, Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O Lord. For he was astonished, and all that were with him, at the draught of the fishes which they had taken: And so was also James, and John, the sons of Zebedee, which were partners with Simon. And Yahshua said unto Simon, Fear not; from henceforth thou shalt catch men. And when they had brought their ships to land, they forsook all, and followed him. — Luke 5:1-11
It was like watching one of those horribly predictable crime scene shows on TV.
Where you know exactly how the entire episode is going to play out within the first two minutes, but you can’t help but get sucked into the whole hour, anyway.
Yeah, you know what I’m talking about … When you’ve seen one episode, you’ve seen them all, but they’re all still somehow equally exciting.
Halfway through the passage, and His message to me was obvious. It’s a word I’ve heard over and over again, but somehow still manage to forget … over and over again.
“Trust me, child. I’ve got this. Quit toiling. I will provide. I always have. I always do.”
But then … a twist! At the end of the passage in verse 10:
And Yahshua said unto Simon, Fear not; from henceforth thou shalt catch men.
“All these ‘little’ things you’ve asked me for and received — you’ve only just begun to scratch the surface.” These ‘basic necessities’ will sustain you in the short term, but imagine what you’d witness and accomplish if you fully surrendered. If you ‘forsook all’ to follow me as those men did.
You’d see, and take part in, things that are of much greater significance.
You’d catch people.
You’d see, and take part in, the collision of heaven and earth.
Are you in?
And are you ready?“